Being Part of the Miracle

Background: I had an unexpected preaching weekend last weekend when our Rector came down sick. The Gospel for the lectionary was Matthew 14:13-21, which is the story of Jesus feeding 5,000 people. Following is the text of the sermon I preached.

Being Part of the Miracle

The story of Jesus feeding the 5,000 is a well-known and often-cited story. Of the various Jesus stories that were available to the Gospel writers, this is one that each of the four Gospels made sure to include.

As Matthew tells it, Jesus has just learned about the execution, the beheading of John the Baptist, and Jesus goes off in a boat to be by himself to grieve. But the crowds get wind of where he has gone and they follow him.

Have you ever tried to take some quiet time for yourself, even for something small, and had someone interrupt that time? I’m not always as generous or as hospitable as I want to be when that happens.

Jesus is mourning the death of his mentor, cousin, and friend, the guy who baptized him. Crowds of people Jesus doesn’t even know follow him from the nearby towns. And what is Jesus’s reaction?

He had compassion for them and cured their sick. That’s something we could probably all work on—treating people with compassion regardless of the mood we are in. Jesus becoming human and feeling the full range of human emotions increased his empathy and compassion, it didn’t give him a sense that his feelings were central or more important than anyone else’s.

In the story, it gets to be towards evening, and the disciples come up to Jesus and they are worried, “We are in the middle of nowhere, it’s getting late, there’s no food around here, let’s send these crowds away so they can go to the villages and buy some food.”

Jesus’s response to the disciples is a key to this whole story. He says, “They need not go away; you give them something to eat.” 

Let’s notice what Jesus DOESN’T say. He doesn’t say, “Have a seat, I’ve got this.” He doesn’t say, “Watch this, you won’t believe this.”

He says, “You give them something to eat.”

We know this is a miracle story. We know that Jesus performs signs and wonders. When he calls on the disciples, he gives them a role in what is going to happen. They are part of the miracle.

Jesus turned water into wine, he healed the sick, he raised Lazarus from the dead. It’s not like he couldn’t feed the crowds by himself.

But Jesus was also a teacher, preparing his disciples to continue his ministry after he leaves his physical body. The disciples need to learn how to be a part of Jesus’s work. We need to learn how to be a part of Jesus’s work.

The disciples come back with an answer that might sound familiar to us: “We have nothing here but five loaves and two fish.”

We don’t have enough.

Jesus, I’d love to help, but I don’t have enough time.

Jesus, I’d love to help, but I barely have enough money for my own family.

Jesus, I’d love to help, but I’m just one person. I can’t possibly be enough to help. I can’t make a difference.

To this answer—we don’t have enough, we only have a few loaves and a couple fish—Jesus says, “Bring them here to me.”

I know you don’t have much. Bring me what you’ve got. It will be enough.

Jesus tells the crowds to sit down on the grass. He takes the loaves and the fish and he looks up to heaven, and blesses and breaks the loaves, gives them to the disciples, and the disciples give them to the crowds. And everyone eats and is filled.

It sounds so simple, you almost miss the miracle.

In January 2017, Christ Church decided to start up a program called the Alpha Course. Specifically for the youth group.

Rev. Kelsey and I had both just been hired part-time. And it was decided that Saturday evening would be when they would meet. So Youth Group was going to start meeting on Saturdays after the Alive @ 5 service.

We thought, hey, maybe parents of the youth group kids would want something to do while their kids were here, so we said, we’ll offer Alpha for adults at the same time.

Food is a big part of Alpha. You sit and break bread together and get to know each other at the table over the course of several weeks. If you don’t have food, you don’t have Alpha.

Our contemporary music leader, Jana Leslie, knew that parishioner Colin Edgell was a chef and that his two sons were active in youth group. She asked Colin if he would head up the kitchen and handle the food. There might be 30 people or so. Colin said yes.

We promoted the class a bit, opened registrations and more than 90 people, youth and adults signed up.

What do we do now?

Jana put out a call for volunteers. We had a parishioner who owned a restaurant who said he could help us get the food to prepare. From February through May, every Saturday night, almost 100 people, youth and adults, from all walks of life, a number of people in recovery, all gathered in the Parish Hall after the Saturday service, and all sat down at tables and were served salads, dinner, and desserts.

Alpha was designed to be a free program, where anyone could come. As people in our congregation heard about the program, some donated money to help cover the costs.

Everyone brought what they had: their time to volunteer, their money if they wanted to donate, themselves if they wanted to participate.

One of the miracles that happened through Alpha was that people who might not have given each other the time of day on the sidewalk became close friends who ate together, prayed for each other, and took an interest in each other’s lives. There were 11-year-old kids who would search the pews or the Parish Hall for big, scary-looking tattooed guys, who became for one another, part of what it meant to be a church.

A few loaves and a couple fish. More people coming out than we thought we could feed.

Jesus, what are we supposed to do? You give them something to eat.

We don’t have enough. Bring me what you have. It will be enough.

Our Alpha Retreat at the Claggett Center from the winter/spring 2017 Alpha Course.


Our tendency as a church and as a society is to seek our induvial and collective comfort. To do a little bit until we find that sweet, comfortable space and then stay there.

Picture the disciples: “Well, this has been a great day. Big crowds of people came out, Jesus cured the people who were sick. It’s getting to be dinner time. We’ve got enough food for the 12 of us, but certainly not all these people. Jesus, send the people away to go get something to eat.”

We fill the church for Christmas and Easter and special occasions. Have you seen how many people we feed and how much money we raise for the community during Waterfowl Festival?

Do we really need to run an Alpha Course? Or start a food ministry? Or train more Stephen Ministers? Or have a concert with five church choirs? We’re doing good work in the community, I see my friends each weekend at church. Do we need to try new ideas and feed more people?

Earlier this summer, we did a small group study of J.I. Packer’s book, “Keep in Step with the Spirit,” which is about how to align our lives and open our eyes to see and experience the Holy Spirit at work.

Packer talks about revival in the church, restoring life, and fellowship with God. He says the Holy Spirit is the architect and agent of that work, which is not just an individual experience, but a social and corporate thing, which touches and transforms communities.

He writes: “God revives his church, and then new life overflows from the church for the conversion of outsiders and the renovation of society.”

The loaves and fish come from the church and go to the crowds.

“Revival is God stirring the hearts of his people.

“Times of revival bring deep sense of being always in God’s sight; spiritual things become overwhelmingly real, and God’s truth becomes overwhelmingly powerful, both to wound and to heal; conviction of sin becomes intolerable; repentance goes deep; faith springs up strong and assured; spiritual understanding grows quick and keen; and converts mature in a very short time. Christians become fearless in witness and tireless in their Savior’s service. They recognize their new experience as a real forestate of the life of heaven, where Christ will disclose himself to them so fully that they will never be able to rest day or night from singing his praises and doing his will. Joy overflows and loving generosity abounds.”


That’s what it feels like to have the Holy Spirit working in and through us, the Advocate Jesus sent us. What would it feel like to be a part of the miracle of feeding 5,000 people? To have your hands on and in the work that Jesus was doing? It was work the disciples didn’t see coming or think they could do. Would it help you trust God and encourage you to offer what you have?

The Holy Spirit moves us out of our comfort zone. It nudges us to say that sitting on the sidelines, or in the pews of the church isn’t the goal, it’s how we recharge and restore ourselves. The Spirit has been working in people this way since the Book of Acts.

Continuing the work that Jesus did, pushing new disciples, changing our lives and our expectations.

Miracles come from God, through Jesus in the story, and through the Spirit within us and around us. As disciples, we are asked to be a part of these miracles.

As with the disciples and Jesus feeding 5,000 people, the miracles that unfold before us and around us, that we get to be a part of, might not be miracles that we prayed for, or expected, or in some cases even wanted. The disciples may have wanted to put their feet up after a long day.

God’s primary way of operating in the world is through people, through those who open their lives to the Spirit. Miracles aren’t meant to let us off the hook, to say God’s got this, but to encourage in our faith, so that we can help.

We begin by bringing what we have to Jesus. Whatever you have, however much, it may not seem like enough, but it’s enough to start.

Bring your loaves, bring your fish, bring your time, bring your compassion, bring your heart, bring your gifts. And don’t be surprised when Jesus breaks and blesses what you bring, and the Spirit multiplies it and blesses you and those around you.

* The featured image at the top of the page is “The Church of the Multiplication” by Alfred Muller licensed under Creative Commons.

The Spirit of Love

Background: I preached last weekend at Christ Church Easton, on Father’s Day Weekend, where the lectionary reading was Matthew 10:24-39. In this reading Jesus tells the disciples that he has come not to bring peace, but a sword, to set a man against his father and a daughter against her mother. Possibly an unfortunate reading for Father’s Day. Or maybe not.

“The Spirit of Love”

And then Jesus says, “Happy Father’s Day, everyone!” Amen. The End.

You certainly have to think that the lectionary editors weren’t consulting the secular calendar to put a reading like this on Father’s Day or Mother’s Day. Or maybe they were.

Not all of our earthly parents model God’s love for us. There is a difference between God’s love and priorities and our earthly love and priorities.

I’ve been reading a daybook/devotional every morning by Henri Nouwen titled “Bread for the Journey.” Last week, I came across this entry:

“The Spirit reveals to us not only that God is “Abba, Father” but also that we belong to God as beloved children. The Spirit thus restores in us the relationship from which all other relationships derive their meaning.

“Abba is a very intimate word. The best translation for it is “Daddy.” The word Abba expresses trust, safety, confidence, belonging, and most of all, intimacy. It does not have the connotation of authority, power, and control that the word Father often evokes. On the contrary, Abba implies embracing and nurturing love. This love includes and infinitely transcends all the love that comes to us from our fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, spouses, friends, and lovers. It is the gift of the Spirit.”

The love that comes from God, which we have an opportunity to experience, transcends family love, the love of friends, and even love from our spouses. The human love we experience can be complicated, can be lacking, and can even fail us at times. But God’s love doesn’t fail us. It’s an embracing and nurturing love that we can always fall into.

Jesus was and is trying to point us toward and show us God’s love. But he also saw the response he got from those in power, those with status, those who wanted to control or withhold love and use it to their advantage. We all encounter people like that in our lives.

Jesus says, when we encounter those people, we have to make a choice: do we side with them, or do we side with God?

If we are raised in a family that is racist, or homophobic, or with parents that are abusive—siding with our family, continuing those feelings and actions, is being a part of hate, divisiveness, or violence.

When that’s what “peace” looks like, Jesus says:

“I have not come to bring peace, but a sword…
For I have come to set a man against his father,
and a daughter against her mother,”

When what we are handed down, our inheritance, is worldly things that don’t look like love, Jesus says, whoever loves father or mother or son and daughter more than me is not worthy of me.

Imagine being the first person in your family, after generations of racism to say, “No, this is not okay. We are all equal, regardless of skin color or culture. I’m not going to live the way you do.”

How do you think you will be received by your family?

Or to have a conversation that says, “I have this big love of God in my heart, but when it comes to loving someone, I think that love for me looks different than it does for you.”

A number of us were at a program at St. Marks a month or so ago called, “Healing Church Hurts,” and it was absolutely heartbreaking to hear the hate and abuse that people have suffered at the hands of the church, both from clergy and from community, from people who claim to follow Jesus, to love God and their neighbors.

Jesus showed by his life and his example, through the people he spent time with and who he cared for, that love comes first.

As Christians, I think we can all agree that at least part of the reason Jesus became human was because humanity was heading in a bad direction. Jesus showed us a different way to live and different priorities to live by if we want to experience the kingdom of heaven.

Let’s remember that the life Jesus lived, a life of love, a life of caring for the poor, the sick and the marginalized; a life telling the powers-that-be that they were living out of synch with God’s love and that they needed to turn around and get their acts together—this life got Jesus nailed to a cross.

People who are stuck in their ways and invested in their ways of life don’t want to be told they should change. Especially those with power, status, or money on the line.

So Jesus tells his disciples, when you follow me, there is going to be a cost. But when you give up your old life to follow me, you’ll gain a whole new life, one centered in God’s love and priorities.

We have choices to make. Are we willing to make God’s mission of love and justice our top priority, even when it might affect our relationships or our livelihood? Are we willing to use the lens of “What Would Jesus Do?” when we look at our friendships, how we spend our money, and how we treat people we don’t know?

Do our choices reflect our faith? Do our lives proclaim the love of God, both giving and receiving?

Moving in this direction sounds like a huge undertaking. And it is. But in my experience, it doesn’t happen overnight or all at once. It’s a process. It takes time. And we have help.

We have a couple small groups studying J.I. Packer’s book, “Keep in Step with the Spirit.” As Packer introduces what he is up to in the book, he writes that he is particularly interested in:

“The work of the Holy Spirit in the inspiration and interpretation of Scripture, in the regenerating, sanctifying, equipping and empowering of individual Christians, in the gifting and using of God’s people in various forms of service, and in the reviving or renewing of churches and communities.”

That’s the work Jesus was doing.

Sanctification is the process of becoming more Christ-like as we open ourselves to the Holy Spirit’s guidance. Through the Spirit, God meets us in our slow walk and helps transform us. Over the past 10 years, I hope I have been able to live more like Jesus, even though I fail and fall short. I hope I respond differently in situations where I am tempted to lose my temper, lash out in hate, or not treat someone with the dignity that each one of us should receive as children of God.

And if I am being transformed, it’s not through my own efforts—I don’t get a gold star for that—it happens through humility and being open to God’s guidance through the Spirit working in me.

Another way that the Spirit helps us is by giving us people in our lives who encourage and inspire us. Jesus rightly points out the people we need to challenge and not to follow. Thankfully, hopefully, we have family and friends who model the right kind of love for us.

The first of those people, for me, is my father. It’s Father’s Day weekend, so it feels like a good time to share some gratitude.

Henri Nouwen in our opening quote talked about calling God “Abba” as “expressing trust, safety, confidence, belonging, and most of all, intimacy… and implying embracing and nurturing love.”

This week, I remembered an experience I had playing Little League baseball. Our Oxford team was playing against Ruritan in Cordova and I was a runner on third base. The pitcher threw a wild pitch, and I saw my chance, ran for home, and slid safely across home plate.

As I stood up, I saw my coach clapping and I raised my hands to celebrate, only to find my left arm shooting out at an unnatural angle, badly broken. I remember everything going kind of blurry as shock set in.

Oxford Little League team photo. I am third from the left in the back row. Note the fiberglass cast on my left arm. That was after six weeks or so of the plaster cast, which had already come off. This photo was taken well after my season had ended.


One of the things that fathers tend to do these days and those days is to record their kids doing things like playing sports. And my father had researched all the handheld camcorders and had himself a state-of-the-art Betamax video camera.

I have not watched the tape of this happening, but in the live taping of me sliding (safely) into home and standing up with a badly broken arm, as my arm comes up and you hear a collective gasp from the crowd, you can clearly hear my dad say, “Oh…crap!”… though he didn’t say crap, the camera drop, and he rushes to get onto the field to help me, and then to ride in the ambulance with me to the hospital.

This is a pretty good example of my dad as a father figure. Unfortunately for him, I think I could have shown the prodigal son a thing or two. I repeatedly messed up, fell short, and got in trouble. And my dad met me in those situations with love and grace and forgiveness.

Part of the reason that it was easy for me to embrace and understand the idea of God as a loving father is because my dad showed me what that looked like as a loving father. He modeled that for me. And he still does today.

How about one more model. Before I was in elementary school, my father introduced me to a friend of his, Jack Anthony. Jack’s son David was a year older than me, and we spent a good bit of our earliest years together. And the four of us would go to Orioles games. And Jack always seemed like a good guy and loving father, despite wearing a Yankees hat to Orioles games.

Fast forward forty-some years, and I connected again with Jack here at Christ Church, with Jack as one of our Stephen Leaders, helping to lead our Stephen Ministry and giving us all an example of what Christian care-giving looks like. For me, as someone who has not been through Stephen Ministry training, this ministry of friendship, of coming alongside someone who is going through a difficult time, of listening, this ministry is one of the shining stars and models for our community.

Last night, we got to commission Karen Fisher as a new Stephen Minister, and my wife, Holly, who has been a Stephen Minister for a couple years now, as a Stephen Leader. This finishes out the latest class, most of whom were commissioned at the picnic a couple weeks ago, of 10 new Stephen Ministers and two new Stephen Leaders.


I am grateful for these examples of the Holy Spirit “regenerating, sanctifying, equipping and empowering individual Christians, and gifting and using of God’s people in various forms of service, and in the reviving or renewing of churches and communities.”

Every day we have choices to make. Let us choose to follow Jesus, to learn from the examples and encouragement of those living into God’s love and priorities and allow the Spirit to work through each of us.